trust me, this is not for you. i just wanted to think.

starting with yesterday. i got an 93 on my german test, which proves to me that i’m not stupid even though i feel like i am in that class. and the guy who sits next to me who seems to have a relative grasp on things got an 80. so i know it isn’t a pity grade. 

i worked from 2-11:30 and left with a 2.01 PPTA, with 70ish tans. so that’s a pretty solid average. what you do is you multiply PPTA by tans, and figure out how much product you’ve sold. if you hit 2.00 you get 2% of all your sales. but you keep adding on a daily basis. so if you fall below the 2.00 line of total tan averages at the end of the first 15 days, you lose all your commission. even if you’ve sold $500 or something. right now i’ve tanned almost 350 people this month and have a 2.03 average, and monday will be my last day to stay above 2.00. i’m fairly confident, for the first time since i worked at STC, i will get my commission.. and the good news? i’ve sold over $600 in product. so go me.

i got off work at 11:30, and drove home. i didn’t get to sleep until about 3, and i had to be up at 7, to meet Maranda and Steve and Kim and Amber at Kenwood cofc. so basically, i walked/ran a 5k on 4 hours of sleep. then i came home and showered and met vanessa and cooked, and then went to some birthday party of some guy i didn’t know, and then came home and now it’s 11:30 and i am still awake. so this 4 hours thing is hitting me.

i drove past the hollander’s house tonight and i wanted to cry. there’s already a new family moved in, and it sucks. i don’t want them to be in texas, i don’t want to not be able to play settlers with them, i don’t want to not have anyone to sit with in church tomorrow. 

tomorrow i have to find time to do a 10 source annotated bibliography in german over neo-nazis. i’m excited about my topic, but not that i have to do a 15 minute presentation, or this bibliography. ugh ugh ugh.

i’m just a little miffed tonight at the world, and it’s probably the combination of no sleep and that i …well, there is no combination. i’m just tired.